A few weeks ago, I reached a new low point. After spending over 26 consecutive hours only sleeping and watching Doctor Who, I realized I had fallen back on all the bad habits I had ever had.

The moment of realization was a bittersweet one. I had just finished one season and clicked the link to watch the next episode. In that moment my frequently unstable wifi broke down. This delayed the episode's playing for only a few seconds. But while I watched the loading icon spin, all I could feel was the wish that the next season wouldn't have another special.

Back in July I started working full-time for the first time in my life. At first, I was surprised how easy I adjusted to it.
But after about a month my energy reserves were depleted. As a consequence, I started to spend basically all my free time watching movies and series. Among them was Doctor Who. I had heard many good things about the series, but had never watched it. After less than three weeks, I had finished six seasons.

In between most of the seasons, Doctor Who has a few specials.
And around the end of season five, I started to hate myself for doing nothing but watching Doctor Who.
I wanted to focus on other things. For example writing this blog again.
But I felt trapped, and I didn't know how to stop myself. I wished that there was not another special, so that this nightmare might end an hour earlier.

Since then, I restarted to work on myself.
I started to write each day again, even if just for ten minutes.
I still have a long way to go in adjusting myself, and to get more intentional with my time.
But one big part of this was admitting to myself that once a week, I simply need a rest day. And if I use it to only lie in bed and watch Netflix, that's perfectly fine.

In the past I made some promises, wrote about what I wanted to do. I thought this would help me in holding myself accountable. It didn't.

So, instead of writing about what I want to do, I will simply do it. When I'm finished, I will write about what I did.
And if I feel like I want to abort a project because my priorities have changed, you probably will never know about it.

This means that I don't have a publishing schedule. I'll simply publish when I'm ready.